And so today, essentially, I was told that MDS, where I work, can no longer afford to have me around…seemingly is unable to find a way to utilize me…am in an “unfunded” position and currently not able to bring money into the agency.  And so I said earlier this past year that I would be out of MDS by January 1…and so I had a couple months extension.  I feel like I should be totally freaking out but I am actually happy…it is forcing me to start thinking seriously about phase II…I dedicated most of my life to human services, maybe it is time for something completely different.  It is a time for me to be creative about what it is exactly that I want to do and to just do it…what am I passionate about really…hmmmmmmm?